What I have
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In the last month I took a rather boring concert and added a couple hundred cuts, manually synced countless shots, watched and re-watched each song over and over, and then waited three days for my boss to get around to picking up the DVD I burned him.
It’s been a busy month, but I’m happy with how the concert DVD is turning out.
We talked about our next project last week, so it really does look like this year long fiasco is going to be done in the near future.
So, as the end of my contract as grown closer my mind has begun to wonder. When people ask me about how I got to the valley, or about what work I’ll do when this DVD is done, I almost always volunteer the information that I don’t like this city and that I want to get back to the Northwest. It’s true that I don’t really like Phoenix, it’s bland and backwards. The city has no character, the people no communal identity and it’s really fucking hot in the summer. Seriously, even as I get use to the winters, the summers are still awful at times.
I’ve looked at work elsewhere, I’ve priced places to live and done the math on how I’d get out of my lease. A month or so ago I saw a very interesting opportunity from Sojourners for an internship program they have in DC. It would be the change I was looking for and I’d be doing work that I believe in.
However, the more I thought about it the more I realized that just because I craved change, it didn’t mean that it was what was best.
I’m blessed to be where I am. I’m blessed with good friends, steady work and a great church.
Always telling people that I don’t like Phoenix is just an excuse to look past all that I have. It’s just an excuse to put all of the things I don’t like about my life and explain it away as something that this city or this situation or this job has done to me. If I can’t be happy with what God has given me in Phoenix then I can’t be happy with being blessed in Portland or in Vancouver or in Boise.
So, I’m no longer telling people that I don’t like Phoenix. It doesn’t matter. I’ll choose to focus on the good things I have here and when it’s time to leave it will be because there is another opportunity elsewhere, not just because I want out.
This might not sound like a big deal because only four people knew about the Sojo internship. It might not sound like a big deal because I’m sure I’ll continue to complain about tons of stuff anyway. This is however an end to my “I’m only in Phoenix for film school” attitude, and that’s a big change for me.
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Blessings are a tremendously large part of a satisfying fulfilled life!
Love ya
Prayin for ya
Dad
20 Mar 10 at 13:11
However, being in Portland would still be nice… I’m moving there in August, and I would love to get to see you on a regular basis again :) I’m happy that you’re more content in Phoenix though. There’s nothing more draining than being discontent with where you live.
Jeannie
7 Apr 10 at 12:11