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Cameron the Safety Net

It’s been an alright week. I got sick last weekend but thankfully it didn’t last long. It did give me an excuse to chug some NyQuil though… NyQuil sleep is the best.

Last Friday I got to go see Baz Lurhmann‘s newest film: Australia. It’s his attempt at making an epic, like a David Lean epic… I love David Lean, and while this movie is nothing compared to what Lawrence of Arabia is it’s definitely worth seeing. The sort of movie that is best seen in a theatre, I highly recommend it. At two and half hours it’s a tad long, but the performances are solid, the plot alright and the cinematography breathtaking. Evidently for some of the war shots are just composited footage from Tora! Tora! Tora!. Recycling effects shots is nothing new, but with footage that old and a production budget as big as this, it seemed a little odd to me. Some of the handy work was done by a friend so I paid extra attention… and the final product looks great.
This post’s soundtrack (as always if you’re reading this on Facebook follow the “original post” button below) is an early mix of a track on Johnny Bertram‘s new album (I think I use to live with this one guy who hooked me up). I’m not sure if it’s ok that I’m posting it, but I just did. Do enjoy the track, the new album is good and great. When I first heard Luke’s brother’s music I was blown away at how talented he is, but even the early mixes of these new tracks show how he has really started to come into his own. The album (at least as I have it) includes a few tracks that are on his already available EPs, but they are completely remixed with some new instrumentation. I have no idea when the album will be out, my guess would be shortly after it’s done.

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I love Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, as a matter of fact it’s the best movie ever made. I think everyone wants to see themselves as Ferris; he’s confident, in charge, easy going and endlessly creative. However in the end I know I’m really Cameron, that’s not all bad. He is genuine, he is loyal… but he’s also just a bit pathetic.
A good thing in my life is at a crossroads. A few months ago a good friend and I decided to see if there was anything beyond our friendship. There were some really good times, there were some really awful ones… and while it’s taken me a while, I now feel it’s time to move on. I really care about her, and I know she cares about me. I kept telling myself that the worst thing that could happen was for us to not have a fair shot at a relationship. It’s become quite clear that I not only have no idea what that means, but it’s far from the worst thing that could have happened. We were close for a while, and I wish it could have lasted, but it didn’t. I wanted to be with her so badly, but more then I wanted a meaningful relationship I want other things for her and for us. I want her to really seek God, to really digest Blue Like Jazz, to find someone who shares her spiritual beliefs. I want her to feel safe and secure, to know that she has someone to talk to about anything. I want her to see how talented and beautiful she is, I want her to have more self respect. I want our friendship more then I want to never talk to her again, more then I want my pride or to avoid heartbreak. I now see that the pros and cons of me and her add up to a great friendship, nothing more.

Bleh… I’m glad that’s out.
Take it easy, I’m going to go try and not think about this for the next forever or so.
David Hildreth