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Too much in one week

Friday before last I was driving down Pecos Road away from work and I looked down to see my car had just passed a little landmark. My reliable yet loathed Oldsmobile Alero had just reached 100,000 miles. “Good little car” I thought as I pulled out my phone and carefully snapped a picture. I pushed down Pecos and got on i10 towards Tempe. A little bit after the Warner Road exit I changed into the middle lane and just as I settled in the lane a huge grey truck to my left decided he too wanted in the middle lane. I swerved right and then left, became perpendicular to traffic and I clearly remember saying “Oh God, help.” I kid you not, those could have been my last words. If I had been t boned that would have been it for me. I really believe that I was protected… my luck just isn’t that good on its own. :)
I hit the center divider almost head on. The scrapes and paint would later show that my car’s front end almost crested the k-rail. I was tossed around a bit, but I had my seatbelt on and thankfully the airbags didn’t deploy. I was pretty shook up, I think three cops asked me if were sure I was ok even half an hour after it happened.

So the Alero was done. My insurance offered me a good amount for it. Truthfully it was more than I could have ever hoped to sell the thing for. I spent the last half of my week looking and found a nice car for a good price.

It’s a 2008 Dodge Avenger, low miles and a lot of great features. Even if it’s just another vanilla American used car it does at least look more aggressive than the Alero. I don’t buy into the “American car” myth, the parts on any car are just as likely to be made in Elkhorn as they are in Harbin. My car was assembled in Michigan though, which I like… that plant is scheduled to close sometime next year.
The car’s also got an AUX port for my iPod, that’s worth $12,000 by itself right?

I lost a friend this week. No one died, no one moved. Nothing was decided, nothing was changed. It seems things just came to their logical end. I cut ties and almost immediately felt lonely. It was a great friendship… a year and a half ago. It’s done now and I’d love to just get to a point where I really only remember the first two years I knew her. Before I screwed all this up.
I’ve really let her down, that’s by far the worst part.
Urban Outfitters announced last week that they would make available some Polaroid instant cameras in their stores. These are literally the last ones made… the first thing that came to my mind was how much I wanted to buy one for Andy. :/

Take it easy, I’m off for a nice drive in my new car. :)

Progress

Last week I volunteered my new place for a dinner party of sorts. Not a real dinner party, because that makes me feel retarded, but a night where there are friends, dinner and hanging out. I hadn’t really had a group of people over yet, so I was excited to show off my little flat. All though after inviting 6+ people, I realized that I was a bit unprepared. You see, when I moved to Arizona I owned a single plate and bowl. That might sound pathetic but I didn’t really want anything other then that. I had collected other household items over the past two years, and have definitely spent money on necessities in the last month. However I still didn’t own service for eight… I didn’t have chairs for eight or glasses or forks or even something to serve salad with. So I made a couple trips to IKEA and all was well. I could have gotten away with plastic plates and cutlery but I’ve decided to embrace owning useless household possessions. It was a fun night with a nice meal, RockBand and a sarcastic board game called Munchkin. Now that my place is successfully broken in, I look forward to entertaining now and then.

I’m glad to report that I have finally made some headway on the documentary I’m cutting. I am up to my nose in interview subclips, but I’ve really been able to get a firm grasp on the story so far. My boss seems to be trying to put his foot down a little bit and doesn’t want anyone in the office to take vacation time until the end of the spring. I have plans at the end of May so we’ll see what happens. The film should be done by then, and I all ready have a few other offers for work. I would like to continue with this company, and they seem interested in keeping me… though I am glad my contract is open ended.

Lately I’ve had the undeniable urge to just buy a plane ticket and head to Boise. Most of the time its just a need to see my family and some old friends… but now and again its a one way ticket that I want to buy. Things are good here, but I really do think there is something about leaving everything behind and starting over that is always appealing. Even when things are great… even when I have work and friends and a great living situation. Some problems still just make you want to abandon everything… its a scary thought. I’m glad I know I could never bring myself to do it.
A simple weekend in Boise though? I do need one and soon! :D

I get to see David Bazan on Saturday. He is playing house shows all across the US, and I couldn’t be more excited. I’ll post some pictures and maybe a little video this weekend.

So uncertain it’s certain

There is one thing I know about my life, and that is that it changes.

I’m on a high about something one moment and lost about something else the next. I try to keep a pretty even keel but lately it’s been difficult.
I’ve got an interview… there is a lack of communication.
I’ve got time to work on projects… I have absolutely no motivation.
I make a decision… I talk myself out of it.
I feel so sure about something… I look around and have no idea what I’m feeling.
I don’t like it when my life resembles a roller coaster, I wish I could just sit everyone and everything down and just set things straight, but I can’t do that. Situations depend on more then just my whims… people don’t just do what I think is best… I can’t just tell her what to think.

I’m not trying to emo, I just want you to know that I’m feeling more unbalanced then I have in a long time. Not since I decided to get back in school have I been this conflicted, this diluted, this ineffective.

Despite my procrastination, work is getting done in my classes. I’m doing a lot of good work that should fill out the new demo reel I’ll be cutting this winter. So look out for that, I’ll have some stuff to post in the next couple of weeks.

I am looking at my travel plans for this Christmas but nothing is set in stone yet. I know I’ll be seeing my parents in Vegas but I don’t know if I’ll actually make it back to Boise this year. That’d be a very scary first.

This post’s soundtrack (facebook people don’t get that because notes are lame) doesn’t have a lot to do with anything, it’s just a song I love. Music always puts me in a better mood. Also, those Pedro fans out there will notice that this is the version from the Progress EP… the full title wouldn’t fit on the page.
David Hildreth

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