I’m on a high about something one moment and lost about something else the next. I try to keep a pretty even keel but lately it’s been difficult.
I’ve got an interview… there is a lack of communication.
I’ve got time to work on projects… I have absolutely no motivation.
I make a decision… I talk myself out of it.
I feel so sure about something… I look around and have no idea what I’m feeling.
I don’t like it when my life resembles a roller coaster, I wish I could just sit everyone and everything down and just set things straight, but I can’t do that. Situations depend on more then just my whims… people don’t just do what I think is best… I can’t just tell her what to think.

I’m not trying to emo, I just want you to know that I’m feeling more unbalanced then I have in a long time. Not since I decided to get back in school have I been this conflicted, this diluted, this ineffective.

Despite my procrastination, work is getting done in my classes. I’m doing a lot of good work that should fill out the new demo reel I’ll be cutting this winter. So look out for that, I’ll have some stuff to post in the next couple of weeks.

I am looking at my travel plans for this Christmas but nothing is set in stone yet. I know I’ll be seeing my parents in Vegas but I don’t know if I’ll actually make it back to Boise this year. That’d be a very scary first.

This post’s soundtrack (facebook people don’t get that because notes are lame) doesn’t have a lot to do with anything, it’s just a song I love. Music always puts me in a better mood. Also, those Pedro fans out there will notice that this is the version from the Progress EP… the full title wouldn’t fit on the page.
David Hildreth

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So uncertain it’s certain

I got to see David Bazan in Tucson on friday. I was sorta on the fence about going to the show until a few weeks ago, but I am so glad I went. It was amazing. Me and two guys made the drive down to Solar Culture in Tucson and while I wish David had been in Phoenix, the venue was worth the drive. The place is an art gallery by day and at night it has concerts on a little stage, which makes for a intimate and unique atmosphere. The acoustics were good, which can be rough at smaller places, but it was just the overall feeling of the place that really made it work. The show was only $10, and the guy at the door was just taking cash with a small money box for change, which is better then an ass hole bouncer or some huge commercial ticketing system. After getting in we looked around and saw that most people had bought in their own drinks, which the venue is totally cool with. So we went to a gas station and got a six pack and enjoyed a few cheap beers with the show. A concert sans the ~$8 beer? What’s not to love? The first act was some local guy, who was awful but after him was J Tillman. I had never heard of him, but he was really quite good. His sound is sorta Iron and Wine -esque and his voice is just off the charts. I’d definitely check him out if you’re like me and had never heard of him.
Then David Bazan took the stage, and I immediately noticed something a bit different about him. Earlier in the night I had seen a balding, bearded man making a phone call near the front of the venue. I thought to myself, “Is that David? Nah, he was shorter then I am, there is no way.” Its funny how you can sometimes idolize people in odd ways. David Bazan has always struck me as a hulking beast of a man, with a lumber jack beard and a straight face, he just seemed like Paul Bunyan with a guitar.
So to set the record straight, David Bazan is an excellent singer/songwriter, a hulking, beast of a man… who is also like 5’6”.
He played a wide variety of songs, from his solo stuff to old Pedro The Lion tunes. He also played a bit of Headphones and apologized for not playing “Natural Disaster” because he didn’t know the synth part very well. He did play “Bad Things To Such Good People” which was amazing. He played the first riff while getting himself set between songs and I (and most of the people around me) yelled in excitement. It’s a dark and complicated song, but hearing it live was great. Also I couldn’t help thinking about Luke playing it in the back yard of the Juanita House with the rest of us trying to sing along, good times.

I saw I’m Not There last night, it’s a movie about Bob Dylan where Bob Dylan is played by five different actors. Each story line follows a different time in his life or aspect of his character. While it’s not the most cohesive movie I’ve seen in recent memory it was really fun to watch. Dylan is portrayed as an old soul who is running from his past by an eleven year old african american boy. As a conflicted husband and father by Heath Ledger, a spiritual person and preacher by Christian Bale. A young poet who speaks his mind by Ben Whishaw, an old hermit by Richard Gere and finally as a jaded and misunderstood rock star by none other then Cate Blanchett. It’s a really fun watch, if you can catch it, I highly recommend seeing it.

Keep it chill, I’ll do my best too do the same.
Dave Hildreth

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Two minutes and forty seven seconds.

And because I live for nerdy excess it’s also available in High Definition 720p

Tomorrow I get to move on to my last class for this part of the program I’m in. After that I’ll get my Associate’s Degree (who knows what the hell you could do with that) and will then get to start on my Bachelor’s. I’m already counting down the days until I am done with school. It’s been a fun 17 years but I now have a good grasp on what I want to do, at least for the next decade or so, and I am quite anxious to be able to start doing that.
The class I just finished was on PSA production and my spot turned out pretty good. I’ll probably tweak it in the coming weeks, especially the titles at the end. It’s now in the resume section of my page, feel free to check it out.

A trailer for Juno hit the net last week. It’s a film by the guy who directed Thank You For Smoking and I think it looks awesome. It did well at the Toronto Film Festival and has a really high rating on IMDB, although the US release isn’t until December so I guess It’l be a while before I get to see it myself. I hate waiting for movies, especially indie flicks, because even if you wait 3 months for it to be released there is no guarantee (especially in this silly city) that you’ll be able to see it when it’s out. I still haven’t seen Once, it played in Phoenix for like a few weeks, yet it’s still playing in Tucson, months after it got it’s “wide” release.

I’m out for now
DMH

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And then it was monday

Yeah, I’ve got to still work but I’ll take overtime over a day off almost 73% of the time… I did the math.

First off on this “holiday” I give you another episode of I stole it so you don’t have to. It’s my favorite section of Paris Je T’Aime, which I highly recommend. The movie is a collection of short stories all written and directed by different people and set in or around Paris. They are doing the same thing with New York next year.

I’ve gotten back into watching movies lately. After having the same netflix movies for three weeks I finally have the motivation to watch them. I also downloaded a few that I missed in theaters and arn’t on DVD yet. Paris Je T’Aime was one, also Sunshine and King of Kong. All of which were good, King of Kong the weakest of the the three but still good. I also downloaded an HD copy of Reign Over Me, which was awesome and watched Trainspotting for the first time.

There is some new music in my iTunes rotation too. A new Eislely album, which I like a lot more than their other stuff, and a new John Vanderslice album which is too good. All in all i’ve been able to slip back into my little film school ritual of watching a new movie or listening to an album while getting some work done.

And the best part is I’ve actually got some stuff done :D

I’ve been working on my demo reel, I’ve got a neat concept for the menus and am making progress.

That is what I have at the moment. I want to have a lot more clips in there and I need some music but it’s well on it’s way to being something cool. All in all my menu animations for my DVD might be more impressive than the projects they are meant to show… that’s ok I guess.

Neither of my Heinz commercials made the finals. That’s ok, there are a lot of really good ones that did, so i’m satisfied. The first one is probably going to make it’s way to my resume DVD so it’s time well spent.

I’m out for now
David

P.S. for those who don’t spend that much time on youtube this is why africa is hot (if you get bored just skip to 1:20 it’s all worth it from there on)

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That one day normal people get off of work

1. Why didn’t I take a bigger breath before I jumped in?
2. Why am I 23 years old and still unable to efficiently move in water?
3. How could my resume be better?

1 and 2 are easy, because I’m a poor swimmer, and because I’m a poor swimmer.
3 is where it gets tricky. My resume doesn’t suck, it just wouldn’t get the me the sort of job I want. Like I talked about a few weeks ago, I have learned a lot this last year in Arizona but my work still resembles the videos I made in high school and that honestly keeps me up some nights.
I was browsing SA the other day and came across a thread of people’s 3D renders, I was blown away. There are a lot of goons, and many of them are pretty talented but I would have never guessed that work of that caliber was common for the 18-35 nerd crowd.
Lately when I see work that is better than mine I am usually jealous of the production value, the shot composition and the lighting. The areas that for a long time I felt I had nailed down. I am so much more creative than I once was, but somehow I just can’t keep up with the basics of production.

I’ve got a pretty big decision coming up, I’m pretty sure I know what I am going to do but I’m not yet 100%. The bachelor’s program at Collins is diving up between Film/HD production and Visual FX. The FX degree looks awesome and I would love to know more about 3D animation and compositing, but I really not very good at all that and don’t think that I could catch up in 2 years. So I’m pretty sure I am going to stick with Film/HD production, I still want to shoot actual film for once, and I need the time to work on my lighting and composition skills.

Jeannie did this the other day and I figured i’d give it a shot. These are some track’s from albums I’ve been listening too. It’s a bit random but they all have similarities.

Bright Eyes – I Must Belong Somewhere

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah – Let The Cool Goddess Rust Away

The Bravery – Believe

M. Ward – Chinese Translation

Peter Bjorn and John – Paris 2004

Stars – Midnight Coward

I’m going back in the pool
David Hildreth

P.S. I took some pictures of my new place the other day, I’ll take a few of my room and then upload em.

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The doggie paddle days of summer